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Now she is sitting next to me without teasing me she is not even moving(reading a book that's why)since i can remember myself with her she has a book with her and she reads it everytime we argue about something or.....i don't know everything else!Unfortunatly i am the same way(you know dealing with things that can not be passed away)reading a book or everything that's in front of me even the t-shirt of someone sometimes i thing a very laime joke and then i turn red and the subject changes like my colour but THE THING HERE IS that in 3 hours and some minutes we are going to welcome the new year and in 3 months and 8 days i have my bairthday(finally 18)BUT i still feel that i am NOT READY FOR THAT!PLEASE PLEASE SOMEONE HAS TO STOP TIME cause EMILY IS NOT READY TO FACE HER 18 YEARS OF HER ECXISTANCE ON EARTH selfish huh?!I KNOW it's one of the thinks i want to IMPROVE!GOD IF YOU ACCIDENTALY READ THIS(BECAUSE I'M SURE THAT THE PRAYS IN MY MIND CANNOT GO THAT HIGH ALTHOUGH MY BRAIN IS HIGHER THAN MY BODY)STOP THE TIME